Welcome, PrayBreathe - it's wonderful to have you with us.
I drank 30 yrs. No one in my life understood what I went through - they were all social drinkers. They would advise me to 'just have one or two' - not realizing that for us, there is no such thing as moderation. When I found SR I was immediately calmer & no longer felt alone. That meant everything. I never intended to stay, but here I am - almost 12 yrs. later. I never did drink again. I know you can do this.