You can make it this time. Pay particular attention to make it thru the first 3 days.
Pretend that "staying sober" is your JOB.
Here is a fantasy scenario that may prove helpful:
So you have been hired as an employee and your job is "Stay sober no matter what".
And if you make it past 1 year of complete sobriety then the company will pay you. If you slip...then you get nothing.
It starts as a fantasy but actually its not really a fantasy. Because TRUST ME if you go 1 year sober you are going to "get paid". And not just with money.
To keep things simple start with the 3 days. Dont drink NO MATTER WHAT. Remember that "Your only job is to stay sober".
You are a secret Agent. That is your mission: Stay clean no matter what.