Good luck Guener! Nothing ashamed of looking out for your best interests.
Dragon, I occasionally feel that way in real life too. Summer can be difficult, as Barbecue, and being outside always remind me of the "fun" times I had drinking. I continually rewind that tape in my head of the final year and never want to relive that experience again. It's funny how selective and cunning our subconscious can be. Our addiction wiring is just merely lying dormant in our brains, waiting to be reactivated at the first drop.
Glad you are feeling better Ringo!
Take care all!