thanks Brian. I really apprecite your replying. I have never been married, I think mybe if I met the right girl, who thinks like me (and enjoys metal music, festivals and motorcycles,,, ha ha )... then maybe all the pieces of my jig-saw life would fall into place. So I keep hoping. And I know I am a really nice guy. I hope that does not sound too much ego, but this is really true, I never wanted to hurt anyone in my life, truly. i just have dream that maybe I meet this girl and I will look after her, even lie my life down if I had too, And then maybe life would be so nice, to have 100% trust in another person. This is my dream I suppose, Maybe Im too much of a dreamer.