I agree, anyone would be having complete frustration and also not wanting to go back to a situation like that! I would call a moving company and advise them that you have had three others no show and you need complete confirmation that is not going to happen, and that you would like texts or email when they have left to be on their way. Make sure you are using a reputable company.
Don't ever feel like your life is less Lacey. That's just not true. Everyone has different situations, but you matter on this earth!!!!
I am also going to say this. Don't think that just because you choose to start counting days means it negates the other work you have done. For years you have worked on being a better you, and nothing can take that away or negate that.
Sending you a big hug. Dont' let this get under you.