Originally Posted by
sammymaguire 
I battled with a mental illness and episodic alcoholism. It took me ages to find meds that worked.
Im in a good place today but loads of people walked away when the drama was still playing out. Im in mourning for those people or some of them anyway.
Today is very hard because one of them got good news. Her daughter graduated top of the class from a very prestigious university. Her daughter was my god daughter. I wanted to ring and congratulate but Im no longer welcome in their lives. I actually liked my god daughter and Im sad that I cant congratulate her.
Its like dealing with lots of deaths with no funeral.
Do you mourn the people who walked away?
Yes I do mourn people that walked away...a best friend did.
If you have some long term sobriety you could write her and tell her that you do...and tell her how proud you are of her daughter.
I'm sorry you are feeling sad...nothing I can say can make it better...its a process.....I am still in the "angry" stage of losing some of the people I lost.