Thank you both, Guener and Dee.
It is so true that the proposal for the MP is difficult to write and as I struggle with it, the more difficult it seems. I think I´m also struggling with burnout from last winter as I feel the project is not that important, although I know it is. But I am going to write it to the best of my abilities and send it. No matter what the outcome.
I find it hard to meet new people outside of work. I´ve been swimming in the same swimming pools for 20 years and have met one person who is a friend. Here in Scandinavia everybody is into "hygge", being cozy with friends and family and seeing that makes me feel the loneliness even more.
But I´m going to do something about it and I have already taken one step. I have met some nice people in my Coda group and we have decided to start having dinner together before meetings. I suggested we go meditating together as well and five people wanted to to that, so I believe this is a good beginning.
I might also take my computer to cafés and work there when I have afternoons off.
It´s so good to be able to express myself here. Thank you so much for your support.