Dee Im sorry your drinking escalated. I always worried that mine would progress but it didnt. I could easily stay sober for days at a time when my mood disorder was going through a stable phase...then the electrical storm would start in my head and out would come the bottle.
They were drinking binges so binge drinking is good too.!
Anyway call it what you will it nearly ruined my life and I had no hope of recovery until those psych meds killed the electrical storms in my head. I dont miss them. They were horrible things and I wouldnt wish those episodes on my worst enemy so definitely not down playing them. I was arrested during one of them so I know exactly how dangerous they are.
Anyway they are gone now. I just wish my first docs were educated enough to treat them but they kept pushing me into AA. They did that until they nearly pushed me to suicide. Thats why you will never find me in the AA section of this forum.