You're headed for a world of heartache if you continue down this road. I think deep down, you know this to be true.
Alcohol has no conscience, no common sense, no fear of consequences. Your judgment is clouded ... alcohol is thinking for you.
Get sober, count your blessings, and enjoy the life you've built with your husband.
I'm sorry if I sound harsh ... I'm giving it to you straight, as you asked. I've seen too many women live with regret and sadness due to poor choices while drinking. Please don't make the same mistake, PippoRossi.