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Old 05-26-2019, 05:55 AM
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Originally Posted by Resurgence View Post
Day 11.

Sunday morning; grey, rainy.

Argued with partner earlier - emotions ricocheting all over the place.

Feel a bit numb now, which sparks my id/lizard brain/AV into life.

Currently reading here and deep breathing.

I know alcohol isn't the answer, but one beer promises so much. They're empty promises, I know, so why do I always entertain them?
I'd say, think past that first beer.

To the tenth beer.

To the passing out, the arguments, the dangerous or just embarrassing behavior. The 3AM jolt of fear and pounding heart. The anxiety, regret, toilet-hugging, gagging, headache, missing work etc etc etc.

It's a bad habit. It takes time to break and at eight days I was all over the place emotionally. Stick with it.

Getting outside always helps me.
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