Two thoughts as I remember where I've been with this (leaving, stress, kids, little sleep, etc.):
1) God tends to work with my small amounts of sleep in amazing ways. Maybe I'm more willing on a deep level to lean into my Higher Power's help.
2) Music, tears, joyfulness are all okay. Points of joy are healing, wherever they are found. Seeing even tiny ones and saying or thinking "Thank you, God!" creates new awareness inside me.
New Soul song.
"I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
hoping I could learn a bit
about how to give and take. https://youtu.be/6OmbjjWVhko
Prayers and blessings are with you and your family today.