That's a lot to deal with.... with barely lucid eyes. You're much further along in sobriety that I but I can certainly appreciate the myriad of awkward and uncomfortable feelings you must be going through. Not easy to look around when we quit numbing out. I was a week sober and something snapped in me at work a couple days ago. I had enough. Lost in on my boss and walked out the door. It's him or me. I have the rest of this Canadian long weekend to compose the most important written submission of my career. I digress....
I don't know if I sobered up to do this....or this happened because I sobered up. I truly believe that sometimes we drink to simply not deal with things we'd rather not. I fear I have made a lifetime of it.