Originally Posted by
GoNwithTheFLOW 
Hi everyone. Thanks for all or the advice and support. I wanted to check in and let everyone know I made it to a meeting. It took everything in my to get past the heart pounding and head shaking. Once I breathed enough to calm down I enjoyed hearing people and their success stories. Unfortunately, I didn't make and friendships. I didn't speak or course so it's probably my fault. I can't start a conversation to save my life. Again, trust issues. Ugh. I can't give up.
I didn't talk either at first. Like Horsie, then they couldn't shut me up.
It does get easier. People all know each other and it can be intimidating. Once you get adjusted it can be a very powerful experience, particularly in surrender.