Welcome Fatbird. I am the child of an addict (and apple didn't fall far from tree). His addiction eventually ended his 50 year marriage to my mother. My mother kept the fort all those years.... and made a home for all of us. It was her who said to me "the only thing stronger than love, is addiction". She's has always been a source of wisdom - but to me, that might have been the wisest thing she said ever. She was angry for awhile when the marriage ended - to be rejected and thrown away for money to gamble with. It took her a year or more to exhale. It's been probably a decade and she lives the life she loves; always busy and travels often. She still has some dealings with my father (who is now in a home)...and if I had a dollar for everytime she has sighed and said "thank God I'm no longer with that man"...I could take her on a real nice trip : ) It's not going to be easy. Reach out for community to help you through - as there as sooooooo many in this world facing your same struggle.