He called this morning before he took his pills. Apologized for being such an ass the night before, and said he realized how much he was hurting me. He told me he wanted to come home and go to rehab and such.
And your reaction to his empty words was…………
I extended that infamous "olive branch"
once again this evening (after taking his pills) tells me it's not a good time for him, he's not ready.
The cycle of your HOPE, your relief followed by your extreme disappointment happens once again.
Are you seriously expecting this person who is using drugs and has clearly shown you the ups and downs of his moods to just get in your car on Friday and come to your place and collect all of his belongings and then have you nicely drive him and his stuff back to his sisters?
I have to be the villain, when in fact I am the victim.
Sadly you are the volunteer. Continuing to volunteer to allow your heart and mind to be played with by someone who’s love is to the drugs and not with a healthy relationship with you.