"I don't find it too difficult to stop but struggle with accepting that it's forever and then always go back to it"
Be as realistic as possible, don't think forever (how daunting), I mean you could be hit by a bus tomorrow. Ok, try to set weekly goals for yourself and set yourself up for success as you go along.
I am just thrilled every other night now there's a playoff game I can watch, and this basketball one with sober friends too.
Best wishes!