Welcome Santi.
This is my third rodeo, I've attempted to quit drinking twice before. Each previous attempt lasted 2-3 months now I have two years sobriety.
I had also struggled with the concept of forever in my previous attempts but now I relish the thought that I am finished with alcohol forever. Pardon my French but I was so goddamn sick and tired of being so goddamn sick and tired all the time.
Because of kindling my drinking had progressed to 24/7 by the end, interrupted only when I was passed out. I quit cold turkey and the withdrawal I went through subsequently was medieval torture. Full on DTs, seizures, and hallucinations. Even now after two years of sobriety and working my program faithfully there are still days when I feel a little "off".
I am done. D-O-N-E. There are no cravings, no triggers, no white knuckling, those words do not exist in my lexicon.
Best of luck to you in your journey.