Life is like that sober, I think. My emotions were numbed by many years of drinking and they are still waking up. Same with memories and thinking. I find myself making perceptive connections that would have been impossible 3y ago. One minute I will actually feel HAPPY (and it usually only lasts a few) and the next the sadness and fear of being alone well up...then I do all my work on calming down and I get on with my day.