Hi my friends,
So, I went for my first counselling session today, and sat and cried for the entire time. I felt a complete failure that this spiral into anxiety had started for me again, especially after 3+ years of sobriety.
She was just lovely, told me that I was just re-processing stuff and that I needed to cut myself a bit of slack. Iíve just finished my first year of training to become a childrenís counsellor and this was a normal part of the process. There may be some more work to do around looking at my childhood issues, but in the long run, experiencing things at such a deep level and being able to reflect on that means I will have a great deal of empathy for anyone who may come to me with similar stuff in the future.
I feel so reassured.
Nicotine free since May 2013.
Alcohol free since February 1st, 2016.
Drinking will kill me. If I start thinking any differently, it's a lie.