Originally Posted by
letsgetsorted Thank you everyone for your thoughtful replies.
There is no point in me writing something just to go along with things. This is where I'm at:
I really, really, really want to be normal, I don't want to miss out on stag do's, weddings, lads weekends away etc. (Before anyone says you can do those things sober, you can't, not with my friends, it'd be like going skiing without any ski's)
I absolutely get what sobriety offers, I've seen it first and second hand. It offers accuracy, stability, safety. I'm just not sure I can commit to a life without the dirtyness of alcohol long term.
But, I will admit, the reason I started drinking again was not so I could down quarter bottles of scotch in secret just to stop the pain in my head. And that's all I've done for the past few days.
Bad times
We've been there, I've been there. I could copy and paste this into the timeline of my drinking life and nothing would be changed. But you can change, if you do the work. And there are sacrifices, I never liked when sober people acted like it was all sunshine - there are things like stag weekends and drunk late nights with friends that you will have to say goodbye too. But we all should grow up at some point. And for some of us that means having to grow beyond things that other people are still able (or willing) to do.