I'm sorry you drank letsgetitsorted.
I know at times you've expressed a reluctance to share anything that wasn't 'positive'.
I think sometimes we need to share everything good and bad.
You've proven you can be sober - now you have to work on making those changes permanent.
Life can sometimes feel joyless and without reward - thats one of the main weapons our addicted self has - we want to feel good and we want to believe there's an easy quick fix.
There are fixes - there is a sober life you'll love waiting for you to build it - but most of that takes time energy, patience and a little hope and faith - like all really good things do
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