batchel, everything you are feeling is really normal. IDK, I think sometimes that we can come out of denial and see what our lives really were, but I also think that we can go back there, or if not back in denial, just questioning, why my life with the ex couldn't be like that.
I think that it's good that you are talking about it. It's better to get it out, and then just walk away from it. I don't think it would be a normal feeling to not have emotions about this. I think a baby being born would bring us back to the past to remember how we felt then. I also think that it would bring back memories of all the things that went wrong.
I think you summed up everything in your last paragraph as to how you feel or need to deal with this.
Here for you, and many (((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))).
The only time you should look down at someone, is when you are helping them up.-----Jesse Jackson