I'm glad you brought all of this up, diha.
It's true that we can drink.
For me, that's the scary part.
Even after being sober for a good while now, the fact that I can still drink scares me.
So I keep doing exactly what I have been doing since I sought help for my alcohol problem, namely, to do as Gotta describes and throw myself into the AA program and work it as if my life depended on it.
Because it does.
And for someone who drank and got drunk almost every night for 13 years and who thought he could never get sober, it has worked and I have worked it.
But I still have a very healthy fear of drinking, so I just keep working the AA program as hard as I can.
Please stay with us and congrats on your decisions to seek help through IOP and to go to an AA meeting everyday. And to join us here on SR.
You're on the right path.
Keep us posted.