Originally Posted by
HopeandCope1988 
I do it for the man that raised me, and made sure that I didn't go hungry, or went homeless, etc. .......
Dear C
This is the only thing you've written so far that made me cringe a little. Your dad was responsible for you after bringing you into this world. What you are describing here is a bare minimum.
Good or great parenting involves SO much more in emotional support and intellectual and social development so you can succeed in life.
That being said, and please don't take this as condescending, you just want your Daddy. I understand totally, and have personal experience. You are taking this trip just hoping to connect on some level. There is nothing wrong with any of this.
However, we cannot buy bread at the hardware store. Some of us on these pages embraced that truth up to going "no contact" with such a parent.
You will do what is right for you. Just work on YOU. You have our support.