Glad you are back with us! I also messed up several times before I “got it”. At about 3 weeks sober I thought I would be ok attending an event at a brewery and not drink. Then when I got there I thought I would be ok with just one beer. Well one turned into 13 - and those good ideas at the time weren’t so good anymore.
You did exactly the right thing by picking yourself up, dusting yourself off and coming here to SR!