Originally Posted by
WhoDeyPI 
Depression is what got me deep into alcohol in the first place, but I thought I was over that. I have been suicidal in the past, but always when I was in a drunken stupor. I hadn't been in a dark place like that for a very long time, and was so glad when I snapped out of it.
Hi WhoDeyPI,
Well done for resisting and yes, depression can get people deep into alcohol and then in then in turn the alcohol gets people deeper into depression.
Saint Exupéry’s Little Prince asks a drunk:
"Why do you drink?”
"Because I'm unhappy”
"And why are you unhappy?”
"Because I drink”
I can remember the exact wording but that's the gist of it and it's spot on too.
Being bipolar I know depression well and although life can be very difficult at times things are much, much easier to cope with now I'm sober.
As for the suicidal thoughts please talk to someone if they persist, I think a lot of countries have free suicide helplines so make use of something like that if need be.
Hang on in there, the black clouds will pass.
All my best,
John