Ah, much better explanation.
Anxiety is a VERY sticky wicket. Benzos treat it amazingly well...and they're also fiercely addictive and cause rapid tolerance and dosage increases. I have been through benzo withdrawal and cannot go near them. I take buspirone intead, which seems to help long term.
SSRIs helped me a great deal in the short term to help me get out of dense depressions. Long term for me they are not viable, as I enjoy sex and simply can't have it while on SSRIs. Wellbutrin works better for me long term, but it also has sides like anxiety. I think I've found the sweet spot with buproprion and buspirone.
Wondering if esketamine (ketamine derivative) will help with dense, even suicidal depression for short term treatment. I find that development fascinating.