The hook that gets us trying again and again is 'the way it used to be'.
The funny thing is I look back now and there never was a used to be for me - I always drank to get wasted and I always drank 'badly' - without control and usually ending in embarrassment.
As a younger man I may have been able to recover more quickly - I lost that ability.
I also believe that my condition progressed - I could pretty easily not drink during the week at the start of my drinking years - gradually night time drinking crept in....I ended up needing to drink every day.
I think these are common problems for most of us., but the solution is the same - putting the bottle down and keeping it down.
First things first - putting the bottle down - if you need professional medical help with withdrawal please get it Tetrax.
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