Thinking of you, Jeff, and wishing you well.
No answers or advice.
I had the opposite experience.
I had my son waaaaayyyy too young and couldn’t be the best parent at times.
It’s good now, but it has taken a long time and a lot of living for me to be okay with it.
The past is past, we can’t take what we did back, but we can try to do the next right thing going forward.
And be kind to each other. Kindness is all.
That’s it. That’s all I got.
Peace.