Hi ait - I'm so glad you joined us. We're a friendly, encouraging group & we understand what you're going through.
At 35 I still had many years of untreated alcoholism ahead of me. I ended up doing things I swore I never would allow. One of them was driving while drinking. If we're out of control after a few drinks - bad things are sure to happen. I caused chaos in my life before I admitted I couldn't tempt fate any longer. You can do this!