You are just fine Eve123. If you were sober the rest of your life except for drinking once every 5 weeks, you would be so much better off than drinking every day. I know that is not how it works with us folks, but I think you need to give yourself some credit. 5 weeks is absolutely amazing and something to be proud of. If you can do 5 weeks you can make it a permanent lifestyle change. Keep trying Eve123 and never give up. You can do it. This is a process. By stringing together some really great sober stretches you are letting your body and mind heal and setting the table nicely for a permanent change. Stay with us.