Thanks Mags,
Ugh, how well I remember the days, the anguish, knowing I need to stop, trying failing, telling myself I'm not 'that bad', feeling like crap. Miserably surfing for an answer. The day I quit, I was so sick, I thought for sure I had done some serious damage. Spent the first three days in bed. Joined SR on the 7th day. I had this silly notion that had to 'prove myself' first. SR was a god send, I found the encouragment I needed to continue and the courage to say 'never again'.