Hi Eve
I don't think you're hopeless at all - but I do think you need a better plan than just trying not to drink.
I finally worked out that i had to ork on my recovery everyday - not just when I struggling.
The more alternatives you have to drinking, the more strategies you have for not drinking, the more support yo have to call on and use, the stronger your recovery will be
Have you read through this link? Its a good place to start
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...very-plan.html
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