Originally Posted by
Loulou30 
This will probably seem strange to them as I have quite a reputation for being a party animal (which is actually the very opposite to my true personality - I think this is why I’ve had such a problem for 20 years - it started off improving confidence socially and now I’m hooked and drink like a fish at home as well). I’ve done some terrible things whilst drunk, and really really humiliated myself and black out almost every time I drink, waking up with huge depression and self loathing that it has to stop.
This rings so true for me too. People tend to "associate" me with alcohol. I was at an event recently and there was a raffle (most of the prizes were alcohol) and my friends mum just laughed, saying "Well, Gray will go straight for the wine". And other people make similar comments. When I've got a good chunk of sober time under my belt, I'll be dying for someone to say something so I can shut them down. Not that I blame them - they have more than enough reason to link me to booze.
Anyhow, Congratulations on Day 4
