I can absolutely relate to what you are going through. I had a falling out with my group of best friends and since then I have gone in and out of depression. I isolate myself and thats when I find myself drinking more. I used to drink socially and now I drink by myself. Its a vicious cycle thats for sure. I am very active and eat good but since I have been drinking so much I gained so much of my weight back. I love this forum because I don't have many people that I can talk to about drinking.