Don't be sorry for the posts. Look how many responses and views you get. We are all here with you. Many of us have been there and can feel what you are going through. Whatever you need to do to get through this is the best thing for you. You can make the money back if you go to rehab. It will probably be a lot more as we become so much more productive in sobriety.
You only have to do this once. Remember how awful it is. This is what alcohol does to us physically, mentally, socially and emotionally. Removing it is a major shock to our systems. Replenish that void with good food, exercise, emotions adventure. Fill with a life full of joy and memories.
You are not alone in this.