Also - I reread posts more and what Anvil, needabreak and SK said further echo my thoughts. Djlook is incredibly accurate and vulnerable and honest sharing the trajectory of a situation I, as an outsider, view quite current and possible and predictable for your story.
"Dysfunctional at its finest" is brutal - and spot on. For my ex-husband to accept and choose to leave - and for you.
You've struck a number of chords with me so like I would say to an alcoholic I sponsor or am friends with - you will destroy yourself if you keep going. Time goes so quickly, and 13 years will easily become 13 more.
What life do you want to have? Do you want your children to have? That is at the crux of this.
| "Sometimes, I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast." - Alice in Wonderland |