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Mindful Man ~
I just wanted to express my sorrow at the loss of your beloved Dog. Our current 4th Goldie Dog is very much a Family Member, and this one will be especially rough when that awful Day comes.
I haven't any choice this go-round but to face this Pet loss while Sober. A recent Dog Cancer scare shocked me into preparation. Everything turned out fine, but caused me to realize what the inevitable future holds. Goldies are predisposed to Cancer, and life beyond his current 10 Years is considered to be a gift. So, I'm now treating it as such.
I commend you on your Mental Acuity, and plan/hope to do as well.
From a former, fellow S. Californian...