What will you do instead of AA? Plenty of choices.
I was at a meeting today - not an AA mtg but one specifically for the restaurant industry- and the topic of resentments was on deck. AA 4th step or any method of addressing that stuff - pretty critical to me.
Re the "God thing" - is there anything bigger than just you in which you believe? A political party, Greg Allman, an imaginary pal called Chuckie? (I stole that last one from the movie "Don't Worry He Won't get Far on Foot)
I mean this kindly- and empathetically - anytime I find myself capitalizing the word NOT as far as what I won't do, it's a red flag. The only thing that applies to is "I will NOT drink no matter what" - but short of that, I need to consider whether my resistance or absolute is good for that sober self...or potentially deadly.