I relapsed on Wednesday.
I don't know how it happened again. I'm trying to keep learning everything I can, so that it doesn't happen again. I'm trying to stay out of self loathing as it doesn't help me.
I have felt overwhelmed, although a million times better then the state I was in last month. Drinking only ruins everything. I need to be strong and keep moving forward. I know I get urges to drink for many different reasons, bc i self treated my emotions and bc I'm an alcoholic. I have to not give in to these lies.