Welcome back UU2. I think just like you know why picking up the pot was a bad idea, you know what the solution is - and in turn the answer to your question.
Most of us got to a point where our drinking/using became exhausting and overwhelming, and all the lies that came along with it.
Bottom line though, there is a solution and it's 100% your choice/responsibility to make it. It won't be easy and you will have to do things you don't want to do to get there - but the rewards far outweighs the initial hard times. So yeah - do you want to grab a life jacket? There's a whole rack full of them right here on SR.