You could just stop, yeah? Sounds like you like yourself better without the baggage of being a slave to the buzz.
It sounds like you’d like to see others without their baggage too ,yeah?
Your guilt(undeserved) is a manifestation of the addiction trying convince you aren’t worth being free of It.
It’s a lie , you know that too ,yeah? You know you worth every bit of being free of the slavish devotion to the buzz.
Break the illusion of the lie , show the addiction who is boss. Break the illusion that says the buzz , any buzz ever, is worth more than being the you you can and deserve to be .
Rootin for ya