8 days and getting close to drinking again
1. Haven't been to a mtg since Friday.
2. Poured a little wine into the spaghetti sauce and thought about pouring a glass. (I don't even like red wine)
3. Got into an argument with my son yesterday and was stressed and full of self hating remorse.
4. Yesterday, I thought, who cares, I just want to have that feeling of ease and comfort that comes with the first drink.
5. Feel sorry for myself. Like no one's cares. Poor me, poor me...pour me a drink.
6. Boredom.
Today I'm supposed to go to recovery circle at the Kaiser outpatient. I hope I go .