I wondered for a long time.
“I have a professional job—I have a great house—I don’t have drinks in the morning, I don’t get shakes in the morning unless I drink heavily the night before, I like drinking everyday, I don’t need to......” blah blah blah.
I could not keep promises to myself about cutting down or stopping. The guilt that I felt was terrible. My nose was red/ purple. All day. I was sluggish.
It got to the point where I rotated stores to buy my wine. I drove to the next town late at night after my town had an evening cut off for selling.
I denied ‘it’ because I had difficulty labeling ‘it’
“It”. “Problem drinker”. “Alcoholic” “moderate drinker” “social drinker” ( really, by myself?)weekend warrior ( weekends went from Friday and Saturday nights to Thursday to monday nights to Wednesday to Tuesday nights.
Hmmmmm
Not a slave any more.
I’m free. From ‘it’
Thank you SR!