Part of recovery is having a plan to "go to" when cravings hit from your triggers like: hunger, anger, lonliness, tiredness and in your case BORDOM.
You need to take drinking off the table. It is not an option. Can you get a medical detox? It would be the best way to get started in your recovery. Walk through the door that you "put your foot in" and reclaim your life. Start now before the alcohol abuse kills you.