Today was tough. Last night I drank too much and didn't sleep. I think I knew I wanted to put myself in a bad place, maybe force my hand. I had work today.
Its not like other jobs I've had where you can tough it on with willpower because this job is 100% brainpower so it was really hard. I just drank tons and tons of water.
Got through. Had a date.
Quitting is hard and I feel tight lipped about everything now.
I just thought being hear would help and I'm here and I'm not drinking tonight.
Thank you all for your kindness.