This control freak is learning to not be one. I have little control over a lot of things. I can't control the weather and I seem to be ok with that. I can't control the chemical properties of alcohol. They are what they are. And for whatever reason, if I start drinking it sooner rather than later, I always end up drinking way too much too often and feeling bad about myself for it. So I just add this to the list of things I can't control. I'm am just fine accepting that now. It is what it is and I just need to put my energy in living my life without it. Which has always been happier and far better.