I’m 4 months sober and I used my DOC to cover up trauma and now my anxiety and depression is even worse because I don’t have my DOC anymore. GIve yourself a lot of credit for what you have been through and how far you have come. I am about to head to some DBT classes which is CBT for borderline personality disorder. Anxiety is a beast. Surround yourself with supportive and strong people in your life. And you always have us to vent too.