Originally Posted by
Windytown 
And also it would not be as enjoyable to be stoned as I imagine.
This is what I keep on telling myself. It won't be as great as I imagine. You know, there's not a single soul on this forum who has relapsed and felt great about it. It was never ABOVE expectations, there's no real enjoyment and there's always guilt. Light up and you will start thinking about quitting again. And yet -and I find this quite baffling- the prospect of a smoke is such a romantic, unrealistically beautiful one sometimes.
If it would've been so great to be stoned all the time, why would we have come to this place? We wouldn't be here.
I'm not only telling you, I am writing this down for myself as well. I still need to remind myself almost daily. Especially after periods where I thought I left it all behind me.
I hope you can direct your thoughts elsewhere Windy.