yup exactly flying dutch man. You hit the nail on the head. ugh it is such a trickster. Also, a place opened legally less than an hour from me and so I have this urge to go check it out and my thoughts say- just try one joint, smoke for two days or whatever then go back to sober- easy peasy. of course the reality would be easing into it and then back to many times a day within a week , I know that. ugh. And also it would not be as enjoyable to be stoned as I imagine. One thing I remember is as SOON as I take even one hit I just start the craving craving craving- like more than any pleasure it just sets off this endless craving which is so awful.
Still, I find myself looking at the website for the new legal pot shop thinking about it. ugh. day 142 sober.